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Monday, June 08, 2009
This blog has Moved???
I guess this blog has kinda moved... I was playing around @ wordpress.com a while back, and managed to port all my posts from here @ blogger to over there.
At first I thought it was just a good way to have a backup, but as of right now, that site is getting new updates.
That might change in the future, but if it does, I will post notice there.
And here.
And probably 10 other places...
-HuGgLeS-
-P/KAF/PT
Friday, January 23, 2009
I had a Dream...
I had a dream recently...
I don't dream often these days...
Early in december I had 3 or 4 dreams, all of which I have noted down for use as story ideas...
Last night I had a Dream about Kim...
I had a dream like this once before...
Like previously, Kim wasn't dead (of course), but it was just a hospital mistake.. She was alive and well...
But unlike last time where she came home and was happy....
This time in the dream, she was still in the hospital, and still sick...
But she was aware, and awake, and wanting to come home....
And still alive....
I know whenever I post that I feel like I failed Kim, people get upset....
But sometimes I can't help it and that's how I feel...
I feel like I should have been able to do something....
I feel like I should have insisted she be allowed to come home....
I Love her, and I Miss her....
And I do somtimes feel like I failed her...
But I don't belive that she feels that way....
I Feel that she is mostly happy where she is....
I say mostly because she doesn't have me or Bill...
But she does have her loving parents....
And Pepper.... She really missed Pepper.... And Pepper missed her....
Just Like I miss her now... And Penny Misses her... And Bill Misses her... And Cat... Well you get the idea....
I don't know how to hold it in sometimes... I don't know what to do....
Sometimes I feel like she is being my muse....
Because my writing is not worth anything without Kim....
But somtimes, I get these ideas, or these spurts of energy and I just want to say "Hi Kim, and Thank you!"
I love her so much and I hope she knows this.
I'm sure everyone will tell me "She does"... But sometimes it's just hard to belive that for yourself...
N-E-Ways, it's past 4am in the morning and I need to go-2-bed...
I have some crying to do....
-P/KAF/The one with the puddles shoring out the keyboard....
Labels: Dreams, Failure, Kimberly Elizabeth Fox, KimEM, Life After Death, Muse, Stuff, Writing
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Yesterday....
Yesterday... Yesterday was a bad bad day.
I spent a good part of it crying and having a pitty party for myself.
I wrote a nice scathing blog post explaining why, but I'm not going to post it for a while.
Not untill my emotions calm down, and I can read it over and decided if I REALLY want to post it.
N-E-Ways, for all those that care, I'm alive, and I'm NOT doing anything stupid.
-Piper/KAF
Sunday, December 14, 2008
TechTalk Blog, and $99 laptops....
Hi everyone.... Since this "GeekBlog" or "GeekyBlog" has become more of a personal blog, than a blog about technology.... Several friends and I have started a NEW blog about Technology/Gadgets/ and other Geekly Obsessions...
The address is: http://techtalk.cyberbrats.net
and in the last 4 days, we have had 4 posts. The most recent being: $99 Laptops, and other ramblings....
Check it you, you may find you like it!
And yes, I will continue to post my "personal issues" on this blog :)
-HuGgLeS-
-P/KAF
P.S. Did I mention the site is fully .mobi compliant and mobile friendly? Just access the site on your phone/pda through the same address as above, or you can use our QR Code:
Labels: $99 Laptops, Acer, Aspire One, Netbooks, Ramblings, TechTalk
Monday, December 08, 2008
Trash, Life, Love...
Sometimes... Sometimes... Sometimes...
I really don't know what to say here.
I know what I mean.
I don't know how to say it.
That being said, I could say it outright. But that might push people away that I don't want to push further away.
Even if they have seemed to have totally discarded me.
It hurts to be discarded. It hurts to feel like you have been thrown away like a peice of trash. It really does.
I have some really close friends in my life. I've been blessed with knowing them. Kim was a true angel for sure. And this has nothing to do with the friends that I interact with every day. Or even those of you I interact with on an occasional basis.
This has to do with ONE person, whom I considered family. Whom I shared some thing with, that I didn't even share with Kim. A person whom Kim held in her heart even closer than I at times, as hard as that may be for some to belive.
A person whom I found out today, is still alive and semi well, a person that is well enough to comment on the formatting of various websites....
A Person whom wouldn't even return my phone calls when Kim was dying.
Someone whom yes has a serious medical condition. But has chosen to lock herself away and void all contact.
And god damnit, as much as I love her, I am so pissed at her. And angry at her!
I don't know if she meant to throw me/us away like that. But at the time we needed her most, the time when Kim would have literally killed to hear her voice... She was not there... No matter how much I tried to contact her...
It's been 5 months now since Kim passed...
Not a single email.
Not a single phone call.
No instant messages.
No snail mail.
Not ONE thing!
I just feel like garbage, and maybee that's because I am.
-Piper/GeekGirl/The one that is lower in life than the snot rag in the corner.
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Disney
Well, today is the first day of our journey to WDW (Walt Disney World) in florida. I'm waiting on my ride to the airport now.
-P/Somehow, Kinda down 2day....
Friday, October 24, 2008
I FAILED!
I promised her she would come home.
She didn't.
I promised her she'd get better.
She didn't.
I FAILED!
